The Waiting Game

Well, it’s about 11 PM. I’m back from my exam. I counted up the points that I thought I got, and I should have an 88 which is a passing score. This is the first time I’ve ever really had a chance to pass. It will be a long day tomorrow until I find out for sure.

Stress?

I’m in my hotel in Raleigh. Tomorrow morning is my 5th attempt at the CCIE voice lab exam. I’ve been dealing with this for over a year now.

My day to day life is very different thanks to this test. In order to put in the time necessary to study for this, I’ve pretty much had to give up my old social life, which consisted of going downtown every weekend and seeing shows or just drinking. My work life has gotten much busier, since our company is growing at a rapid pace.

I’m probably going to pass the test this time. I came very close last time and I’ve made some major progress in the last few weeks in understanding the topics that have given me trouble on every one of my previous attempts. Soon it will be time to start thinking about what specifically I’m going to do with all of the time I’ll have back. I’ve given it a little thought and here’s what I’ve got so far:

1. Home improvements. Meg and I have a long list of things we want to do.
2. Exercise. I want to run a full marathon within 6 months of passing my test. I also want to reincorporate bike riding into my life.
3. Resume seeing the occasional show and having the occasional night out downtown. I live in Athens and I should be taking advantage of that every so often.
4. Take meditation more seriously.

That’s all I can think of right now but it’s a start.

To commemorate my passing of the exam, I will begin constructing a tattoo idea. No hints yet, but it’ll be cool.

Eye of the storm

Do you ever feel as if you are standing in the center of a tornado? Right now I’m watching many things swirling around me at a very high rate of speed.

Foremost is the ever-present CCIE Voice exam. I’m taking it in less than a week for the 5th time. To say that I’m ready to be done with this test would be a ridiculous understatement. I’ve ridden so many emotional rollercoasters over this that I’ve lost count. The good news is that I’ve made some huge leaps forward in my understanding of the material. The last time I took the exam I came within a few points of passing. Since then I reckon I’ve added about 15 points to my total through my studying, so in theory, I should have a much greater chance of passing this time. We’ll see soon enough.

Then there’s mom. She’s plowing through her chemo like only mom can do, but the last week is going to be the worst of it. She wants me to come down and be with her for that week. It couldn’t have come at a worse time though. Nick is preparing for his CCIE attempt that week, plus we have an installation in Cabo San Lucas that is probably going to get scheduled for that week.

Added to that is our house. Meghan and I are planning some major improvements that are going to take place after I pass my exam. We’re painting the whole interior of the house, adding crown molding, replacing our laminate countertops with stone ones, refinishing our cabinets, putting in hardwood floors, and replacing some of our shitty furniture. Meghan is super excited about it, and so am I, but I have many things on my mind and am having a hard time being enthusiastic.

On top of this, our 5 year anniversary is coming up. We’re planning to spend a week relaxing in Hilton Head at Meg’s parent’s condo. I’m doing my best to make sure that we get to go without any outside interference. But there’s a lot going on and it’s looking sketchy. I’ll be pissed if work messes up my well-earned vacation. Meghan is understanding but still. We only will have one 5 year anniversary. I don’t want anything to fuck it up.

So right now I’m just mentally preparing for a tough couple of weeks. Of course, all this will change if I pass my exam. It would take a major tragedy to wipe the smile off my face if that happens.

Athens Door Guy

Check out the site for AthensDoorGuy. Pretty entertaining shit. I think I can guess which bar he works at, and it’s not one I would normally go to. I think it would be funny to dress up in polo and hit the frat scene for a night. I would feel like a secret agent trying to infiltrate enemy territory though.

Surfacing

I haven’t posted much and all of you know why.  With Mom being sick and me being up to my ass in CCIE work, I haven’t been very motivated to share.

I saw this in the paper today though.  I would love to take 6 months off and ride my bike cross country, or do the Appalachian Trail or something.   I know I shouldn’t focus on my CCIE to the exclusion of all else in my life, but I’m almost finished with it.  Once I’m done, I am reprioritizing.  My bike, which is covered in dust, is coming out of the garage.  I’m going to run that marathon.  I will ride to the top of Brasstown Bald after going 100 miles across north georgia.  But for now, I just have to deal with a few other things.

The good news is that disc golf is awesome.  it is keeping me from losing my shit altogether.

wheredhego?

My friend Brent has moved to New Orleans.

Brent is one of the original Dothan crew.  He’s one of my oldest friends and I’m sad that he moved away.  Athens is an emptier place now.  But I understand why he did it.

Brent if you’re reading this, have a fucking blast down there.  I hope you find what you’re looking for.  Drink some Purple Haze and eat some beignets for me.  Let me know when you’re ready for visitors.